A status update
Posted: Thu Mar 28, 2024 10:25 pm
Hi everyone,
After all this time, I've finally found the courage once again to provide the community with an update on my well-being. It's been a wild ride with some ups and mostly a lot of downs. I've had some really dark days throughout the past months, and it's probably no surprise to anyone that I'm still battling through my depression which has held me in its grasp for the better part of the past year and prevents me from doing what I want to do most of all: to continue my life's work on this server which I have helped to shape (and which has shaped me) over 14 years ago.
Starting next week, I'll be undergoing a series of pshychodiagnostic tests, the result of which will probably have an impact on the treatment I will continue to follow in the months to come. Whether it be therapy, medication or a combination of both remains yet to be seen.
Not a day goes by without me feeling bad about not providing this amazing community with the updates it deserves. Perhaps most of all, I feel bad about not being there for our developers and giving them the help they need to get their updates out there. Rationally, I know that nobody has any use for my feeling bad, but emotions simply aren't so easy to control.
Many dark days still lie ahead, but forward is the only way to go. Thank you everyone for your continued support. I love you all dearly.
After all this time, I've finally found the courage once again to provide the community with an update on my well-being. It's been a wild ride with some ups and mostly a lot of downs. I've had some really dark days throughout the past months, and it's probably no surprise to anyone that I'm still battling through my depression which has held me in its grasp for the better part of the past year and prevents me from doing what I want to do most of all: to continue my life's work on this server which I have helped to shape (and which has shaped me) over 14 years ago.
Starting next week, I'll be undergoing a series of pshychodiagnostic tests, the result of which will probably have an impact on the treatment I will continue to follow in the months to come. Whether it be therapy, medication or a combination of both remains yet to be seen.
Not a day goes by without me feeling bad about not providing this amazing community with the updates it deserves. Perhaps most of all, I feel bad about not being there for our developers and giving them the help they need to get their updates out there. Rationally, I know that nobody has any use for my feeling bad, but emotions simply aren't so easy to control.
Many dark days still lie ahead, but forward is the only way to go. Thank you everyone for your continued support. I love you all dearly.
