The past few weeks have been absolutely shit. There's a few things that have been going on behind the scenes too, and I honestly can not and will not work together with certain members of the team as it is right now. Out of respect for Ryan and the team it is also a reason I am resigning, because I do not want to force a "him\them or me"-situation. I wont elaborate further here.
Note: this isn't about Andres and the drama surrounding him, though it definitely is a small part of the reasons I am leaving.
I have also been demotivated to do anything in the game, and all I do is stand around and moderate. I enjoy being a moderator on PkHonor, but sometimes it can get so boring that there's no "mod work" going on that I'm literally just standing invisible at home waiting for the next person to pm me for help or next idiot to scam another player.
It's pretty safe to say for myself that there's also certain people who I wont name have pushed me into a resignation rather than trying to get my shit together and keep on going. Getting kicked in the nuts of those who are supposed to, heck, even preach it, to cover you feels pretty bad.
I'll still be postcountwhoring and lurking around on the forums. I don't think I'll be logging on much ingame.
For those wondering what I'll do with my bank (aka my barrows hoard): I'm going to be giving away my barrows collection bit by bit to new players. I also gave a good friend of mine most of the dh.
I don't really want to resign, but with these issues and also my own shortcomings, I think it's better that I just resign. Not being able to get myself to perform at 100% is going to be worse in the long run than resigning afterall. If only forum moderator was still a rank
There's a few people within the staff team I'd like to thank.
Billy: After having been an extremely shitty moderator during my first time as one, I am grateful you gave me the chance to become one again.
Alex: Taught me the basic principles as moderator. It was good having you as my mentor. See: Me talking about sections on Ely's part.
Ryan: You've helped me become a better moderator. You taught me how to be consistent, and you involved me in things. Alex shaped me, you refined me. It's a shame we had our personalities clash a few times. I can only hope we both came out of it better than before.
Ely: Out of the entire staff team, I feel like I felt most comfortable working with you. I am very grateful you have given me the chance to increase my workload, because I may have gotten bored of being a staff member with the relatively small workload a moderator actually has. I feel like I could go to you for council at all times, and you've been a good friend. I hope we still get to meet IRL soon. The last thing I'll do before getting my rank taken away is getting the appeals\recovs\refunds in order for you and Alex. I hope my absence wont affect the sections too much. If it will affect it too much, I'll gladly help and mentor Ryker in the process of taking this thing over.
Whiprealgud: You were a model trial. The best I mentorred. Intelligent. Does what is needed, but still has his own personality. You're an epic guy and one of the few I'd also hang out with IRL
You're gonna make it far within the staff team, mate. Keep going strong man.
Rapsey: I have sent you a personal message. :*
There's also a lot of players I'd like to give a shout out, but honestly there's too much and I'm not going to bother making a top 10 or something like that since you're all jealous cunts
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I hope at least a few of you thought I was a good rolemodel/moderator, and that I helped people in positive ways. I enjoyed moderating a lot, but to all things there has to come an end. I don't know if I'll be back. Time will tell.
Kind regards,
Lieven.
